trauma causes...: December 2011

The worst moments in life

not getting a text back
"am fine"
cancelled plans
having a great day, only to have it ruined by someone
burning your taste buds
feeling sick & tired
"am sorry, what was your name again?"
not getting enough sleep
turning to the radio station to the end of a good song
being ignored by people you care about
feeling alone in a room full of people
crying yourself to sleep
not being missed
knowing that you're not the only one
being replaced

Akhirnya aku tersenyum lagi, senyum kecil, senyum yang sama yang pernah kulemparkan disaat aku tau bahwa aku memang bukan satu-satunya :) tapi, sayang itu memberi. ada kalanya memberi perhatian, ada kalanya memberi hukuman, dan ada kalanya memberi pengampunan, karena aku mencoba percaya bahwa dia bisa membuktikan ucapan dan janjinya.

dedicated to you, my Benetiara♥

AM NOT PERFECT

I MAKE MISTAKES

BUT WHEN I SAY SORRY

I MEAN IT!

"your voice is my favorite sound & your name is my favorite noun"

Stuff your eyes with wonder, live as if you’d drop dead in ten seconds. See the world. It’s more fantastic than any dream made or paid for in factories

p.s: You are my sun, my sky. Happy anniversary, my Benetiara♥

“It doesn’t matter how tough we are. Trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up, but maybe thats the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap…maybe going through all that is what keeps us moving forward. It’s what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up before we can step up.”