Letter to her: 2

Hi, mom! is everything good there? i hope so. things are getting worse by the way, am screwed. paps told me that he wanna have another marriage. well, it's not a big deal for me and Putri actually, he can goes with his own way if he wants, with or without him by our side, life goes on. am jussstttt thinking that i'll be overlapped. you know, i still have to be responsible with my college thingy. besides that, there's no one who i can put my trust with. but thanks God i have your sisters, your whole family, they're blessed people. so, what d'you think? is it possible for me and Putri to live by ourselves? i don't think Putri wanna live with anybody else, and it's quite hard to have another adaptation i guess. i know God has a plan for us, therefore He puts us in these tough situations, right mom? and am sure you'll be here, with me and Putri. okay then, that's all from me. me miss you a lot mom. love you never ends.

Life Lessons. Better if you learn it.

• When someone lies to you, it teaches you that things are not always what they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know what is in their hearts. Remove your own masks to let people know who you really are.
• When someone steals from you it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have. You never know when you might lose it. Never take your friends or family for granted, because today and sometimes only this very moment is the only guarantee you may have.
• When someone inflicts injury upon you, it teaches you that the human state is a very fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best as you can, it’s the one thing that you are sure to have forever.
• When someone mocks you, it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, do not judge them by how they look or act, instead base it on the contents of what is in their hearts.
• When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that the person will love you back. But don’t turn your back on love, because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings you will make up for all of your past hurts. Times a thousand fold.
• When someone holds a grudge against you, it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is often the most difficult and painful of life’s experiences, but it is also the most courageous thing a person can do.
• When a loved one is unfaithful to you, it teaches you that resisting temptation is man’s greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptations. By doing so, you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.
• When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about your success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.
• When someone ridicules you, it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for their imperfections over which they have no control.
• When someone loves us, it teaches us love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness, acceptance, and all of these can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.
• When you enter someone’s life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, consider what your lesson will be. Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality? When you die, will your life have resulted in more loving or more hurting? More comfort or more pain? More joy or more sadness? Each one of us has the power over the balance of the love in the world. Use it wisely!

Letter to her: 1

everything seems goes wrong lately, mom. am overlapping, am messed up. i don't know what kind of life it is. life is hard when you were here, but harder when you weren't here. i need you to share what's goin' on these days. honestly, i haven't find someone who can change your position yet (in that case), maybe i can't, neither the relatives nor dad. you know him, don't you? he is not such a great one to change your position in any kind of condition and situation. time destroys all things, mom. the only person who always be here for me, the only person who you gave your trust to take care of me has gone. am done with him, you know it, right? well, am kinda overwhelmed with my things, friends' stuff, love life's stuffs, college's stuff, and house's stuff including dad and Putri. am trying to solve it one by one, as hard as i can. you r the one who taught me how to deal with life thingy. i feel like am in an emergency to meet you, like we used to but seems like i lost my track. well, anyway, Putri is good. she's really a proud daughter, isn't she? her grades is gratifying. and the good news is we are in a progress to minimize our quarrels. and dad? he is still the same one in different situation. and so sorry i can't take care your plants mom, several of them r withered, and so sorry i haven't tidy your room up yet. because i have to deal with my assignments :(

hope He gives you a lot of bundles of joy, mom. make sure you help me to find the "tracks" that i told you above. i love you never end. 

with kisses, hugs, and prays

yours,

Frida

my last words

i think somewhere along the way, i gave up. i got tired of always trying to make everything between us okay because i wanted you in my life. then i realized that you didn't even care. Maybe i realized it too late, but it still hurts. Maybe i was hoping that we'd find a way to change. Now, i think i have to make that decision because it's not fair to the both of us, especially me. it pains me to say this, maybe because i still care, but i have to tell you goodbye. i know what my problem is now, i can't let people go. i put so much effort into putting them in my life that i just hang onto them. but people change and things aren't what they used to be. i just wanted to tell you that i'm happy you've stepped into my life. you've made me realize a lot of things about myself and the people around me. So, for the both our sakes, this is my goodbye.

p.s. : wish you hv a good life then and found someone who can make you excited all the time

MOMentum

I miss the way she laughs,  I miss her crunchy jokes, I miss the way she decides something, I miss the way she calms me down, I miss the way she loves me, I miss the way she shows her spirit up, I miss the way she acts, I miss her smile, I miss everything 'bout her, I miss her

use your senses

Not every pretty girl in shorts is a slut. Not every fat girl isn't trying to lose weight. Not every girl who listens to screamo wants to kill herself. Not every girl who self harms does it for attention. Not every girl with glasses is a complete nerd. Not every girl who is unattractive is single. Not every girl is what you think of her. Look deeper before you judge!!!

i prefer to be in no option

It's hard to live in a life with no mum. And harder when there's no great dad's figure, or at least good. It is become hardest when you have to keep your life, your family life, your education in one straight line, and at the same time you have to be a good role-model for your sister and grow her up. But well, this is R-E-A-L-L-I-F-E. Whatever happens to you, you're ready or not, you're mature enough or not, life is go on and on and on and on. i admit that sometimes it's unfair, but to whom we should complain? God? yourself? your parents? or anybody who close to you? not them, not anyone, but no one. because in the end, it only has two options: being more mature or getting crazy

ME <3 YOU, MOM

God knows what's best

when the situation forced you to be more independent..
when there's no one who can make you comfortable..
when there's no one who can be your best listener..
when the time asked you to take all of the responsibilities..

and the only thing you can do is just.. pray!
people said that it'll works, hope so.

am sick of my thoughts

I understand I should give him space and I do. Yes, I know I’m not the only girl in his life. I know he will always talk to other girls. I just always get this feeling that I can still lose him. Trust, yes I trust him. I’m just.. scared. Scared because you’ll never know what can happen.

BEFORE YOU ASSUME, LEARN THE FACTS. BEFORE YOU JUDGE, UNDERSTAND. BEFORE YOU HURT SOMEONE, FEEL. BEFORE YOU SPEAK, THINK.

Everyone has their own story. Everyone has gone through something that has changed them.

:)

aku tidak bisa memilikimu seutuhnya karena aku punya keterbatasan. tapi, kamu bisa memilikiku seutuhnya karena aku ada karena kamu ada.