one of the deepest song i ever heard...

very touchin' i think everybody needs a reason for all that we do.

i love it, cause its words can make my heart beat much as usual, i love it whenever i listen to this track.

dedicated to ..... ah never mind

a late (naked) lunch

have a weirdo convo with my best @reynitamelia. she's so dumb LOL gue berimajinasi (ups ralat, gue? tidak tidak, kita tepatnya :p) awalnya emang gue, tp dia juga terbuai akan rayuan gue, ya re? hahahaha we're talking about soundtrack of the day, absurd but that's fun really fun, trust me, try it :) she's my best, she knows what she should do when i need her, particularly. the latest report is zzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaap! my brain still blank! full of black and white lol poor me

COMPLICATED!

currently watching it (again)

An estranged father living in a small Southern beach town gets a chance to spend the summer with his reluctant teenaged daughter, who would rather be home in New York. He tries to connect with her through the only thing they have in common-music. this movie reminds me that my sister and i tripped in a "cold war" (gabeda jauh sama Amerika dan Uni Soviet) with my dad since 3 days ago LOL. my mommy asked me to apologize him. but i won't. i crossed my fingers! k then, i'm out, i got bad headache this crappin' night, just wanna hit my bad to sleep although i have sleeping disorder, at least lying on my bed. night pals xx

I have a theory that the only original things we ever do are mistakes

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself

FEAR.... that's what i feel. it sucks, really sucks. konteks dari kata takut memang luas.. tp rasa takut yang sedang gue rasakan spesifik, sangat spesifik, yaitu rasa takut kehilangan, very pathetic! for first time i feel this bloody shit. idk what to do, I'm breaking down, I'm falling down, but now i'm breathing and i am scared to move, don't listen to a word i tell you, just take me by my hand, and i swear i'll make this up to you :( :( :(

save me, muffin!

tadaaaaaaaaaa i got new template for my blog, you can see the result. amazing, right? :p my best rere helped me choose it. by the way, i've made a plan with my friends. we'd like to watch ogie and his friends play skateboard and probably go for take some pictures there.can't wait for tomorrow!!! Geez, this is hols and im staying at home like a shit! about my problem yesterday, i still the only one who blamed :( but i dont wanna lie to my own feeling. let say it's kind of dilemma, and it's sucks. trust me!!!

!@#$%^&*

i'm disgusted with myself and i felt like wanna saying sorry to everyone involved in this problem. bloody hell with all!

And I've always lived like this Keeping a comfortable, distance And up until now

i got my normal life back

in this post i won't talk too much, just wanna say thanks to God! i got my normal life back, my mom and dad act like they usually do (i mean in certain circumstances), my education planning has been structured, and i've started to see another side of life, yeaay at least i've tried it, i've tried to restrain my lust :) God gave me someone to change mine, lemme say he's my "god helper" :p (agak sedikit berlebihan, tapi itulah kenyataan nya :D). i love my life (now), my momdad, my sister, my bestfriends, and him, literally.

You'll always be my thunder

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go

when the sun is shining on me, month covered it!

k k k just deleted my previous post. that's crazy :'( i'm wrong, totally wrong! hope he doesn't read anything about my blog. he's too kind for me, im not deserve it. but !@#$%^&* sigh! what should i do then? should i fight for it? or give up? anybody heeeeeeelp, just put your comment in it.

an imperfect person in a perfect nightmare

folks, i like someone.. but he had a girlfriend. nightmare. and he doesn't even now i liked him actually, but we are pretty close. sometimes he calls me and we talk about many interesting things to share, and he's totally cool. i think we've a chemistry, he's smart, he's attractive, he's kind to all people and i know he's a good person. oh well, let's see how it works, but so far i don't see any sense of love in him, or i'm just too careless? in many ways, actually :) ah never mind what i'm talking about.

hello peelo

hey pals, had left my blog for such a long time, sorry. had nothing to tell actually, these days have gone so normal. my parents were busy and had no time to ask us (putra and i) out for a trip with em, oh crap this is maybe the most boring holiday i ever had. i'm staying at home today and you know? i've my new life cycle (khususnya jam malam) LOL

everything happen for a reason

everything happens for a reason, so do i, especially my feelings i guess. i dont know what happened, just felt something wrong. wanna get out from the problems, but i cant! i have to be a responsible person, im mature enough to solve it. God knows i can, so he gave me the problem in my live.